discipline

I've got about half a blog post drafted on discipline but it isn't ready yet. What I do want to mention straightaways is that while drafting my post on discipline these past two weeks, I totally plunged into no-holds-barred excess and associated self-abuse by way of the consumption of a variety of evils, a la various forbidden meats, sugar by the pound, dairy by the barrel, bread and chocolate...I did not do well at all last week.

The consequences are, as I knew they would be, bad bad eczema, severe anxiety and moderate weight gain. And regret. Oh, the regret that's associated with the failure to take good care of oneself.

I MUST develop discipline!!! It really is a real goal of mine, MY NEXT BIG PROJECT:

Discipline is a goal of MINE. I have recognized the need for discipline in my life off and on for about ten years now, at LEAST.

I need to learn how to force myself to do a few things, in order to achieve what I want in life. This is not learning how to make life difficult or not-enjoyable, it's learning how to make a difficult decision, commit to a difficult path and SUCCEED with the use of discipline.

When I've succeeded through the use of discipline, I know I will feel RIGHT. I'll feel good, because I will feel able to do so much more. I feel trapped right now. Whenever I've succeeded, I will feel more free than ever.

When I think about what I'll be able to with my sense of discipline, I have a definite feeling of motivation. I feel like I can take on anything.

I can see myself there.